Uncomfortably Complete
- Kalyx
- Jan 18, 2017
- 2 min read
If a legitimate cure for Transsexualism were to be found by science which could show countless cases of people who at one time had felt the sting of hating their birth sex but now are able to live happily, without body modifying hormones and surgeon’s scalpels, this revelation would send the vast majority of the transsexual community up in arms as though it were a monumental negation of their Identity. It is generally an unwise decision to identify with mental/medical conditions with which you may be afflicted. Being transsexual is not the easiest way to be human. Personally, I look for an escape from this constantly. I don't wish to be transsexual. I don't wish to feel disgust of the maleness of my body to the point of neuroses. I want to feel ok in my natural state but that ever coming to fruition is seeming even more of an impossibility than it did the day I began. Even then, the idea was daunting and terrifying. Should the day come and science does find the remedy that will allow me to completely embrace my body in its natural state, I will be done. I will take that pill. Rejection of the remedy and continuation of HRT carries a hefty price tag in more ways than one. This whole process of ingesting female hormones and eventual cutting of the skin does not lead to any profound truth or meaning for me. I will not wake up one day and proclaim to the skies that “I am finally complete” because I already am. I am just uncomfortable with what that completeness means. Physically, I am nothing more than a hormonally feminized gay male. That is my truth. The only truth I have discovered in all of this. EndFragment
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